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  • Black mantle

    So I am on t-minus 4 nights before d-day…. yesterday was particularly hard. I keep feeling that it’s my last, my last lunch at our Sunday venue, my last hair cut, my last weekend with my family. So many emotions that just bombard you from all sides and just makes you feel helpless and warrant…

  • the first

    I woke up today… lump free!   I woke up today… worry free!   I woke up today… care free!   I woke up today… with no breasts…   I have no breasts and yet I feel more woman and more empowered then I have ever felt before.   I woke up today… not knowing…

  • Method to madness

    Yesterday was just awful. Yesterday was a day I don’t want to think of or have ever again. Yesterday was painful and emotional and draining. It was never ending and all consuming. Yesterday is over and today I am kicking ass! No pain just swelling….so my boobs feels the same size they were which is…

  • The hanky

    I have a special secret weapon that gives me super powers and makes me invincible…. I have a super duper special shield that nothing can penetrate. Years ago I took a hanky out of my dad’s pocket. He always has one in his pocket and had it at the ready when ever it was needed.…

  • Disciples of decision

    After a very very very long time pondering the reconstruction of my nipples I have finally decided that it’s not for me. On one hand I am just wanting to be done with this whole very stretched out process and on the other hand I don’t want nipple stand forever hahaha. So I am working…

  • The heavens have opened

    Today is an amazing day…. after weeks of agonizing and worrying and living in two trees, my medical aid has finally sent me an email confirming to pay for both surgeries. No more lying awake at night worrying where and how the money would have been gotten…. no more stress! It feels like a very…